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Colorgenics results V6:

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'Smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

As the title states, 'today just isn't my day'.
It might be because I'm on my period and life seems to be crashing down at highspeed without brakes. Who knows? All I know is that I'm not pleased with the way things are going for me right now. Actually, I blame this on menstruation. My moods aren't normally this extreme. Stupid ovaries... *shakes fist*

What's wrong, Cindy?

I'm under pressure&stress. From my mom, from school, from everything. LIFE. I'm trying to do more than my abilities can reach. There's too much on my plate and I'm about to throw up. It's extremely overwhelming and I can't handle it. All of a sudden, my mom expects me to get extremely good grades and to be a good little Asian girl. C's used to be okay, but now, she'll probably kill me if I get a C. Maybe not kill, but cut me off from the world. Guess what most of my grades are. Yup, yup, THEY'RE C's! Fantasic. Why did she flip? Because she expects me to get into a good college, get a good job, raise a lot of money, and support her when she's older. Why me? Because my brothers are worthless. She depends on me. I don't think I can let her down anymore.

TUTORIAL? Ohmygodd. Today's tutorial... Thank you soo much Kristine for making me laugh through textsss. I love you hardcoree. GRACE SONG pisses me off like no other thing on the planet. They TALKED about her. I thought I was going to EXPLODE slash rip my hair out. THEN hearing my boyfriend used to think she was HOTT?! HOLY SHIT. I was sooo fucking pissed off. I was about to get up and leave. Thinking about it even pisses me off really bad. No more.

3D design. Normally, 3D design is fun. Except today. We had to work on these stupid little bracelette-like things. We made rings and connected them together in a certain way. Sounds easy, right? Well, it was. But after doing it for about five minutes, they got annoying and extremely repetitive. They're not that pretty either. They're actually quite ugly. It's not worth the effort we have to put into it. We're the ONLY period that gets to do it too because the assistant teacher liked us best or something. HOW FUN! We get to work on these till our bracelette things meet her criteria. ANOTHER THING, this lovely assistant teacher of ours can't teach. She TRIED to give us a demonstration and all I got out of it was vocabulary that we had to figure out on our own and jumbled up words. I had to figure out how to do it from this instruction paper she gave us and from other people. People asked her and they said she couldn't teach.

And my boyfriend was having a bad day. Well, he wasn't so happy today. So of course that'd make me feel upset too. I can't do anything to help him either, which is another pretty upsetting thing.

Chemistry. My, oh myy. One of the classes I have a C in. Today we had a test. I didn't know what most of what was on that test. Of course it's my fault that I find it really hard to pay attention in her class and I never know what the homework is. I'm taking the blame for this one. She's just so boring that I always space out. I ask people what the homework is because I can't read it from where I sit and she doesn't use Aplusboard. I asked her to update aplus, but nooo, she doesn't want to because she decided she wouldn't use it. (Aplusboard is a site where we can check homework for our classes)

Oh and my family? Oh boy. I can't even talk to them for more than four seconds because then they start irritating and annoying me. Especially when I'm on my period. They don't DO anything in particular, it's just how they act. I know that they're my family and all, but you'd have to be me to understand.

ON TOP OF ALL THIS, I have to be my happy, go-lucky self in front of everyone so they don't worry about me. I have this need to listen to people, to be considerate, and always try to smile even when things are going extremely bad for me. Keeping everything in all the time isn't very good though. So that's why I'm sharing this on Vox.

By the end of the day, I'm very, very tired.

Seventh period Chinese 2? Sighh. I'm soo worn out by then. Even Mrs Lin could sense something was up. She told me to say "xingqi si" (Thursday) and I guess my voice wasn't my usual perky voice so she asked me if I was okay. I wanted to just break down, but instead, I said "Yep!"

I could go over every little thing that went wrong today and expand it into a paragraphs worth of stuff, but it'd probably get too boring.

I love life.

Oh. COLORGENICS RESULTS V5.

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you and you don't quite know which way to turn.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

My colorgenics results v4.

"You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone."

Most of it seemed pretty accurate.

I think everyone should try >>colorgenics<< atleast once.
It isn't hard to do. I promisee. I love using colorgenics.

What would the title of your autobiography be?
Submitted by princesskasren.

As of my life right now, I think that the title of my autobiography ought to be....

Potatoes of love and hate.
An autobiography of Cindy Muffin *Not my real last name, it's a nickyname*.

Why? Potato is supposed to be a replacement cuss word for me. LOVE AND HATE involves the love of my life and other lovely things about my life and hate involves family issues, people, things like that.

Yeah, I didn't really put a lot of thought into it, but that doesn't matter. It's satisfactory to me right now.

I just made my own VOX account. :] This place seems really cool and much more better than xanga. Which I still use kind of. Hopefully, I'll be able to use both. >.> I'll probably convert to this though because it's really trendy and cool looking. Hahahaha. xD

I guess this place will be more for my deeper posts and my xanga will be for my daily doings.

WELL, this first post isn't so deep, but it's my NOOB post. Heehaaa.

What I want to accomplish here?
Meeting a bunch of cool people and expressing my thoughts.